games...

to be honest...

when i'm on field...

the animal side comes out...

not very ferocious...

but not feminine...

in my mind...

i don't think if your my friend or enemy...

if we're on the same team...

we work together...

you teach me i learn...

and i can be quite frustrating sometimes...

it happened before...

i got angry while someone tried to teach me...

my fault...

i refuse to learn...

so i have to learn it the hard way...

try fighting with me on field...

maybe i'll start hissing at you like an animal...

emotionless...

that's how my friend described me one day...

no feelings of happiness...

just a want to kill...

even if i'm smiling at you...

in my mind i've killed you 6 times...

so i guess that's how it seems...

if you want me on your team...

ASK!

don't assume...

who knows i might have other plans...

E.T.

new story book~

thanks to the school voucher i got...

i can add another book to my collection...

- Meg Cabot -

*air head

*air head being Nikki

*air head runaway

( waiting to get the third )

also my sister bought the Hunger games trilogy~

-Suzanne Collins-

*The Hunger Games

*Catching fire

*Mockingjay

although mid-year-exam is just a week away...

i still refuse to study and read story books...

i really have to stop this bad habit..

BUT...

BAD HABITS DIE HARD!!

lols... 

E.T.

random facts of me 2...

yea... 

i know not many people will read this...

but i'll continue anyway...

i'm not gay...

supports world peace...

prefers appreciating people's smile from afar...

have communication problems sometimes...

 has become more rebellious this year...

seriously in love with storybooks...

did my second piercings with a needle and ice cubes...

dislikes falling down...

flicker minded girl...

yup...

 that's it...

i'll end here... 

till then there will be more xD

E.T.

428

 two rally have taken  place in Malaysia...

My country...

although i don't care much about politics...

but i care about peace...

428 Bersih 3.0...

428 Stop Lynas...

it happened today...

i didn't go and support...

was doing other important stuff...

and also...

i didn't have transport there...

but to everyone out there...

FIGHT FOR JUSTICE!!

STOP LYNAS!!

FIGHT FOR FAIR ELECTION!!

SAVE OUR CHILDREN'S FUTURE!!

BECAUSE...

OUR DECISION, THEIR TOMORROW!!

E.T.

liars...

mirror, mirror on the wall...

who's the best liar of them all....

the word friends...

it seems more like enemies..

we became enemies in a mere 1 second...

it feels like more people are starting to hate me...

but they pretend they don't...

 they don't show...

but i feel it somehow...

the cold shoulder they always  give me...

ignoring me when i speak...

how i wish i could aim a bow at them...

just like how Katniss did in the Hunger Games...

i read the book...

haven't watch the movie...

looking forward to do so...

but i'll use a sling shot... 

even though i'm not very good at it... 

E.T.

am i ready? =S

right now... 

i'm worried sick...

will i be able to take up the responsibility of taking care of my family??

she'll be leaving in two months time...

leaving me the next to take care of my family...

i can't imagine how i'll survive...

after 16 years of her protection and guiding...

am i ready???

what if i screw things up?

making it even worse...

i've made mom worried sick about me a couple of times...

it wasn't very pleasant...

with all the punishments...

that made her sad even more...

it's almost 6 months dad's been away...

he'll be back to our side soon...

will everything be okay then?

no more horrible car driving in the morning...

that makes me to puke...

i know i'll miss her songs from the piano...

the feelings she makes from the piano named Frankie...

 the summer songs...

the movie themes...

anime themes...

and so on...

her music is unique...

even i'm no where near her standard...

she's the best...

i can't hope for her to stay...

it's her dreams to further her studies...

so i can only wish the best to her...

dedicate a song to everyone...

Train- when i look to the sky

E.T.

stupid...

i don't know why...

but it seems so painful to just talk to you...

it feels like this

yeah...

tears too...

  you seem like a stranger to me...

i no longer know who you are...

sometimes i feel like telling you...

f**k off...

seems like i'm stupid enough to fall for you...

idiot...

haiz...

it's all my fault...

stupid me...

beware when you're around me...

E.T.