Taylor Swift~ We are never ever getting back together~

E.T.

Happy Holidays!!

It`s holiday time!!!!

( well, a little to late to say this.... late by one week to be exact)

So today is Deepavali,

For those who doesn't know what it is, 

Here you go xD

Diwali or Deepavali i popularly known as the" festival of lights".
It falls between mid-october and mid- November.
The name Diwali or Divali is a contraction of Deepavali which translates into row of lamps.
Diwali involves the lighting of small clay lamps filled with oil to signify the triumph of good over evil.
These lamps are kept on during the night and one's house is cleaned.
During this festival, all the celebrant wear new clothes and share sweets and snacks with family members and friends.

Honestly, i just copied the text from wikipedia...
so to those who celebrates Deepavali,



And to those who doesn't...

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Joke of the day~

I asked my brother: " How does a fish swim?"

He showed me this

Then when i asked: "How does a fish fly then??"

He started to flap his hands...

The answer, fish don't fly!

teeE heeE !!

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Exam~

It`s been some time since i last updated my blog~

Now am in the middle of my Final Exam!!

WheeeeEEE!

6 more days of exam and it is
HOLIDAY!!!

can't wait...

BUT...

The papers are tough...

 it seems like i might be getting a few 'F'....

   

haiz.... such a failure..

looks like i have to be studying harder...

All the best to myself~

And all the best to those sitting for their exams too,

especially those sitting for SPM~ >.< 

E.T.

Dear someone...

i dont understand...

i miss you...

but i'm afraid...

afraid of talking to you...

hurting myself again...

but then later,

i blame myself for not trying to talk to you...

am such an idiot...

i keep saying i dont want to live in the past anymore,

but somehow i just cant do it...

i wait for your smile to appear...

but it didn't...

not for me...

someone told me i have very strong emo aura...

guess it's true....

and it's getting stronger day by day...

i just want it to stop...

i dont know if you would ever drop by and read this...

but i just want to say...

SORRY....

sorry for everthing...

sorry for existing in your world...

sorry for wasting your time...

hope you will forgive me...

and be like last time again...

E.T.

Spinach Indicator??

After trying the cabbage indicator at school,

i decided to make my own indicator at home...

and yes, i used SPINACH!!!

well...

This was how it went...

the square bottle is the control...

the other  has been added with soap...

well, i don't know if it changed colour because of the soap's yellow colour...

 Next...

for this one i added lemon juice...

not much of colour contrast...

i'm not sure if this is counted as pass or fail... xPP

watch the cabbage indicator below~

guess that's all~

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Let me dedicate a song today~ it's stuck in my head after i heard it on the radio...

Hero- Enrique Igesias

Let me be your hero

Would you dance, if I asked you to dance?Would you run, and never look back?Would you cry, if you saw me crying?And would you save my soul, tonight?

Would you tremble, if I touched your lips?Would you laugh? Oh please tell me thisNow would you die, for the one you love?Hold me in your arms, tonight

I can be your hero, babyI can kiss away the painI will stand by you foreverYou can take my breath away

Would you swear, that you'll always be mine?Or would you lie? Would you run and hide?Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?I don't care you're here, tonight

I can be your hero, babyI can kiss away the painI will stand by you foreverYou can take my breath away

Oh, I just wanna hold youI just wanna hold you, oh yeahAm I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?Well I don't care you're here, tonight

I can be your hero, babyI can kiss away the pain, oh yeahI will stand by you foreverYou can take my breath away

I can be your hero, I can kiss away the pain(I can be your hero, baby)And I will stand by you, foreverYou can take my breath awayYou can take my breath awayAn' I can be your hero

Love this song~xD

E.T.

feeling sick? o.0

First, constipation...

Then, chest pain...

Followed by muscle aches...

lost of appetite...

Lack of energy...

Stomach aches...

Diahrear(p.s. I don't know how to spell it)...

Feeling dizzy...

Feel hot and cold at the same time...

What is happening to me ?!?

Perhaps it is the brain...

but does getting stomach ache most of the time proves it?

=0

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Not that i want to but...

It still hurts...

My ankle....

Well i dont have to bandage it like this

but it still hurts when i try to twist it...

Why am i always so fragile???

I dont show it...

I promised myself not to cry anymore...

But i cried when i injured my ankle...

The pain was intense for awhile...

But after wearing the ankle guard it doesn't feel that painful...

it's been more than a month this happen...

i really hope it goes away soon...

i want to be able to dance and jump properly...

pointe~

Back to my ankle...

not that this didn't happen before...

it did...

10 years ago, i twisted my ankle..

But i'm not sure if it is the same leg or not...

It's a distance memory of mine...

too long to remember...

The only thing i remembered was the walking stick my parents got me...

i hated it...

i'm glad my parents gave it to my grandpa...

couldnt bear using it...

My greatest wish ,

My ankle to get better soon!

although it might not be possible to get better in one day...

but i hope it is real soon~

and yes...

i can finally do this~

after days of self torture xPP

my secret?

Use the bed or the wall~

E.T.

Braces...

Hurm....
I think braces are cute xP
 somehow i'm attracted to people who wears braces...
Others might think that they have imperfect teeth...
but hey, no one is perfect...
 To me braces are like a kind of accessory...
 Not everyone gets to wear it...
It kind of make that person stand out when they smile..
. xD Some wear it temporary and after that...
Their teeth will be perfect too...
 XDD

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i think i lost a friend...

I saw you...

Your face full of question marks...

Deciding whether to trust me or not...

After telling you how I felt about you...

I hoped for a reply...

But it never came...

Perhaps to you...

I'm your sister's friend...

Or your friend's younger sister...

Maybe you didn't need me to be your friend anymore...

You're grown up...

Have a circle of friends who are better than a little girl being your friend...

seeing the way you treat others makes me sadder...

You never smile at me anymore...

Well...

As a friend...

Or a stranger...

I can only wish you the best...

Since you left me without saying anything...

I'm still waiting for an answer...

which I doubt you will ever give me...

P.S.I hope we can be friends again...

E.T.

hatred and jealousy...

It seems like hatred plays a large role in me...

Jealousy too...

These must be my greatest problems...

I try to forget these feelings by locking them up in my brain...

I don't really rember them...

But they haunt me in my dreams...

Recently...

The hatred came back out...

It broke free...

It reminds me of the event that took place way before I was a decade years old...

Maybe I was 6 years old then...

She told me...

I don't belong here...

There should only be 3 of them...

I should not have existed...

Many times she mocks me...

Look down upon me...

She even question me the presence of my brains...

She totally hates me...

what can I do??

E.T.

games...

to be honest...

when i'm on field...

the animal side comes out...

not very ferocious...

but not feminine...

in my mind...

i don't think if your my friend or enemy...

if we're on the same team...

we work together...

you teach me i learn...

and i can be quite frustrating sometimes...

it happened before...

i got angry while someone tried to teach me...

my fault...

i refuse to learn...

so i have to learn it the hard way...

try fighting with me on field...

maybe i'll start hissing at you like an animal...

emotionless...

that's how my friend described me one day...

no feelings of happiness...

just a want to kill...

even if i'm smiling at you...

in my mind i've killed you 6 times...

so i guess that's how it seems...

if you want me on your team...

ASK!

don't assume...

who knows i might have other plans...

E.T.

new story book~

thanks to the school voucher i got...

i can add another book to my collection...

- Meg Cabot -

*air head

*air head being Nikki

*air head runaway

( waiting to get the third )

also my sister bought the Hunger games trilogy~

-Suzanne Collins-

*The Hunger Games

*Catching fire

*Mockingjay

although mid-year-exam is just a week away...

i still refuse to study and read story books...

i really have to stop this bad habit..

BUT...

BAD HABITS DIE HARD!!

lols... 

E.T.

random facts of me 2...

yea... 

i know not many people will read this...

but i'll continue anyway...

i'm not gay...

supports world peace...

prefers appreciating people's smile from afar...

have communication problems sometimes...

 has become more rebellious this year...

seriously in love with storybooks...

did my second piercings with a needle and ice cubes...

dislikes falling down...

flicker minded girl...

yup...

 that's it...

i'll end here... 

till then there will be more xD

E.T.

428

 two rally have taken  place in Malaysia...

My country...

although i don't care much about politics...

but i care about peace...

428 Bersih 3.0...

428 Stop Lynas...

it happened today...

i didn't go and support...

was doing other important stuff...

and also...

i didn't have transport there...

but to everyone out there...

FIGHT FOR JUSTICE!!

STOP LYNAS!!

FIGHT FOR FAIR ELECTION!!

SAVE OUR CHILDREN'S FUTURE!!

BECAUSE...

OUR DECISION, THEIR TOMORROW!!

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liars...

mirror, mirror on the wall...

who's the best liar of them all....

the word friends...

it seems more like enemies..

we became enemies in a mere 1 second...

it feels like more people are starting to hate me...

but they pretend they don't...

 they don't show...

but i feel it somehow...

the cold shoulder they always  give me...

ignoring me when i speak...

how i wish i could aim a bow at them...

just like how Katniss did in the Hunger Games...

i read the book...

haven't watch the movie...

looking forward to do so...

but i'll use a sling shot... 

even though i'm not very good at it... 

E.T.

am i ready? =S

right now... 

i'm worried sick...

will i be able to take up the responsibility of taking care of my family??

she'll be leaving in two months time...

leaving me the next to take care of my family...

i can't imagine how i'll survive...

after 16 years of her protection and guiding...

am i ready???

what if i screw things up?

making it even worse...

i've made mom worried sick about me a couple of times...

it wasn't very pleasant...

with all the punishments...

that made her sad even more...

it's almost 6 months dad's been away...

he'll be back to our side soon...

will everything be okay then?

no more horrible car driving in the morning...

that makes me to puke...

i know i'll miss her songs from the piano...

the feelings she makes from the piano named Frankie...

 the summer songs...

the movie themes...

anime themes...

and so on...

her music is unique...

even i'm no where near her standard...

she's the best...

i can't hope for her to stay...

it's her dreams to further her studies...

so i can only wish the best to her...

dedicate a song to everyone...

Train- when i look to the sky

E.T.

stupid...

i don't know why...

but it seems so painful to just talk to you...

it feels like this

yeah...

tears too...

  you seem like a stranger to me...

i no longer know who you are...

sometimes i feel like telling you...

f**k off...

seems like i'm stupid enough to fall for you...

idiot...

haiz...

it's all my fault...

stupid me...

beware when you're around me...

E.T.

edited...

finally~

i edited my blog since 2009~

bout the background...

still finding a perfect picture for it~

more to come...

E.T.

smile??

i don't smile...

because...

i forgot how to smile with no reason...

being emotionless 24/7...

makes me forget how to do it...

coming home...

with no one to talk to...

perhaps it's my fault...

being anti-social...

but i don't know how to start a conversation...

even if have something to say...

i just keep it to myself...

next...

maybe it's just in my mind...

it seems like i'm having a migraine...

and is getting worse everyday...

the moment i step up that particular car...

it comes...

my head spins...

i feel drowsy...

i feel like fainting...

wants to vomit...

creepy huh??

another thing...

i've been clenching my teeth harder and harder everyday....

my mouth hurts...

thinking of getting a mouth piece to wear...

someone told me because i have problems...

perhaps i do...

but i hide it...

till now...

i don't know what is my problem...

i can't answer other people's question: what's wrong with you???

because i really don't know...

i have no idea...

what's wrong with me...

E.T.

once upon a time...

it seems like...

the person i know...

became a person i once knew...

sad...

people who promised that they will be with you...

just disappear...

they no longer talk to you...

ignores you...

so on...

i hope...

this would change... 

life's like a fairy tale...

sometimes there are happy endings...

but not all have...

E.T.

Exam day~

well... 

i didn`t update yesterday coz i was too tired...

so here it is~

my stuff...

after lunch...

sis helped me to tie my hair...

it was terrible...

first...

my hair was unmanageable!!

second...

the hair gel was not working!!

almost used the whole tube...

after that...

did my school homework...

and DURIAN ICE CRAM!!

<3~

hahas...

despite my messy table...

E.T.

random facts of me...

random fact s about myself...

I have not lost my 1st kiss...

Never had dated anyone...

favorite color is green to blue...

Sometimes ego and stuborn...

Loves hand craft ...

Sometimes abit closed minded...

And sometimes very open minded...

Am an average girl...

Who gets emo most of the time...

I guess that's all...

More to come...

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143...

i just wanna tell you...

but...

i don't think it matters anymore...

ah...

i must be the fool...

the biggest fool...

just came across this ...

i'll cross out the last line...

i'll 4 you...

E.T.

novels~

hurmm.....

after reading so many romance novels...

i think i can write one xP...

but it takes a lot of effort and hard work to create one~

latest novels i read so far...

The cold Awakening Trilogy- Robin Wasserman

Frozen

Shattered

Torn

and...

 

a Trylle novel - Amanda Hocking

Switched
Torn
Ascend (not published yet)

these two stories...

are much better compared to Twilight(no offense)...

i hope it will be made into movies xD

waiting for the last book Ascend to be publish~

so...

if you are planing to buy me a story book...

feel free to ask me if i have it already or not...

don`t want to have the same book...

THANKS!! xDD

E.T.

Rain~

it rained today...

it feels so relaxing...

after a long week...

it`s finally Saturday...

now,it`s going to end soon...

i hope it won`t come to an end...

but it`s impossible...

my mind`s cleared up today...

no angry thoughts...

no frustrating thinking...

maybe because i`m extremely tired...

i had ballet lessons from morning till afternoon...

tired but happy...

didn`t think too much today...

so mostly happy thoughts...

i`ll try dancing in the rain next time...

let the rain wash away my sorrows...

wash away my tears...

E.T.

Dreams

Waking up in the middle of the night...

because I dream of you...

it hurts even more...

To think of you...

Seeing the way you treat others...

Makes me cry deep inside...

But you'll never know...

Because I never show it...

I don't usually cry in front of others...

I use a smile to cover my sorrow...

But these few days...

I haven't been smiling much...

Because I have nothing to hide...

the more I wish...

the deeper it hurts...

E.T.

Teary-eyed..

i cry every night...

i put a smile in the morning...

so that no one knows what happens the other night...

i try to be strong...

but every time i failed...

i`m tired of falling down again...

some times i don`t even know what i`m thinking...

a jumbled up mind i have...

i try to solve it... 

but it never comes out right...

i hope this is my last tear...

i keep saying it many times...

it never stops...

E.T.

Exam...

7 days left...

my first ballet exam after 3 years...

a little nervous...

an uncertain feeling...

i`m afraid to mess up...

wish me all the best...

my greatest regret...
is stopping ballet ...
now i`m back...
doing my best...
to get back in shape...

E.T.

it happens again...

Another day...

i saw you...

but i didn`t dare to talk to you...

i no longer dare to face you...

after all those years...

it all seems like it never happened...

i really hate it...

maybe i think too much...

maybe you never felt the way i felt...

it`s time...

Good bye...

i`ll miss you...

i`ll let go...

let go of the past...

let go of you...

your face...

your smile...

your laughter...

your everything...

E.T.